While reading a post on my LJ friends page, I found myself thinking how similar this person's experiences were to mine. And at the same time, ways in which I hadn't become quite as much as an extrovert.
As I kid I was quite a loner. I had a few good friends over the years, but for the most part I was happy reading in my room, playing with legos, having adventures in the backyard. Growing older I always found myself just on the outside of things. I was shy, still am in a lot of ways. But I found that if I was a bit more outgoing I wouldn't be sitting around at home feeling sorry for myself. There were other people out there with my same interests.
In the end I'm definitely more extroverted than I was, but I still have a lot of roots in the shy introverted world. In larger groups I'll withdraw some. When I think about it, DJing has been the ultimate solution. I'm able to attract the attention of a whole room, be the center of attention, without having to interact with people as directly. Yet I can have just as much interaction in a way.
Even writing about this here is a bit of a stretch for me. But the post above resonated with me enough that I felt I needed to write something about it. It's part of the neverending struggle for me.
